Passion

I have learnt that passion can die, be it for someone or for work.
I think I am losing my passion for my work. Reason: I am getting very tired, both physically and mentally by the tactics used by my 'bosses'. I just realized that people may use the 'ignore' tactics when they don't want to commit to a certain decision. But when works are delayed or the result are not forth coming, they will never admit they are the ones who caused the bottle-neck.

Well, it's time that I should remember that my work must not become my idol. I need to give my time to God too, something I have neglected for some time. I need to draw near to Him again.

The above are just my thoughts. so please don't take offense if you are not agree with them... :)

Credibility & Integrity

For along time, since the day I became a Christian, I always thought that those who said they 'love' God or claim that they are Christians are people with integrity and credibility. However, the sad truth is I have met many who have neither.

I have been greatly disappointed time and again by people whom I trusted and had high regards for or loved. They could break their promises made without any remorse. *sigh* I have come to the conclusion now that it doesn't matter who a person claim to be but rather his/her actions speak volume as to if he/she has credibility and integrity.

Christians or not, without allowing the truth of God to be in them, they can be putting on masks which time will tell.


....The above are just my thoughts. Please don't take offense if you do not agree with them.

Blogging

Blogging brought me through so many emotional roller coaster experiences. I started blogging in 2003, when blogging was still something foreign to most Singaporeans. I chanced into somebody's blog then and found blogging a good way to release all my years of pent- up feelings. The blog had been a place where I could let my hair down.

Thanks to some of my blogging friends and readers who used to visit my blog and offer their comments and friendship during those days. I was inspired to compose many poem along the way and unknowingly made a difference to some people's life. :D

I owned about 10 different blogs *grin*, each had its own theme and purpose. Well, those were the days. I have stopped blogging regularly since end of 2007 due to work and also due to the fact that I have no more story to tell, other than about work.There goes my inspiration! *sigh*

God has been very good to me, seeing me through all my trials in life. His grace has been sufficient for me, not more, not less... just enough and in time. Praise be to God!

35 FAQ About Me

01. Who am I?
Beth, a.k.a. Bee or BusyBee

02. What is my profession?
An Educator

03. Who do I teach?
The young and the old

04. How long have I taught?
13 years since 17

05. What do I study?
Early Childhood Education, Educational Management

06. Where have I studied?
Australian and UK universities

07. What do I hope to achieve?
Be a voice in the education industries, give to children what I missed in my childhood

08. What influenced me to do it?
My childhood experiences and the people I met

09. What are my preoccupations?
Work, work, work and more work

10. What is my goal in life?
Be a channel of blessing to others through Jesus Christ

11. What makes me happy?
Simple encouraging words and words of appreciation

12. What makes me sad?
Unreasonable behaviours and injustice

13. What makes my day?
Simple email, sms or calls from my friends

14. What makes me laugh?
Real life humours and tickles

15. What makes me cry?
When someone I know cries, or when hearing a touching story, or when I am hurt

16. What is hurting to me?
When someone I love and care or helped accuses me wrongly

17. What can heals my hurt?
Forgiveness, time and God

18. What challenges me?
One who is more skeptical than I am (previously, height & cold weather)

19. What are my interests?
When I was younger -- sea breeze & sceneries, ball games, listen to soothing music/songs, guitar playing or any musical instument, gardening, 'clean' jokes, Internet learning, blogging, writing, reading, chatting with close friends, window shopping, sewing, cooking, news, anything that holds my attention for at least 5 min.
Now -- sleep, if I have a chance

20. What is my favourite colour?
Blue (but colour matching is more important)

21. What do people like about my features?
My natural big hazel-brown eyes and wide sweet smile :D

22. What do people think of my look?
Some say I resemble certain local or Hong Kong Actresses.

23. What do people think of my voice?
Sweet and sultry speaking voice; good vocal singing voice *grin*

24. What do people think of my personality?
Slow to warm up yet very warm, friendly, sentimental, loyal, persistent, vocal and active

25. What do people like about me?
Sweet, caring, patient, forgiving, positive, innovative, creative, resourceful

26. What do people not like about me?
Work too hard, too engrossed with things or people who fascinate me

27. Which question has surprised me?
"Are you a model?"

28. Who has surprised me?
Two people who mirrored me.

29. Who is my hero?
The Senior Minister, Mr. Lee Kuan Yew (other than Jesus Christ).

30. What keeps me going in spite of difficulties?
The belief that "All things work together for good to those who love God."

31. What is my concept of love?
Found in 1 Corinthians 13; True love is unconditional and it lasts even when the romantic feeling of love is temporarily gone. Whereas, "infatuation" (foolish and usually extravagant passion or love or admirationre) relies only on feeling and is short-lived.

32. What is the diference between my offline and online friends?
My offline friends do not know my inner thoughts even though we know each other for a long time; whereas my online friends know my deep secrets, my joy and sorrows, and my characters even though we only know each other only for a short time (if they read my blog).

33. Will I meet my online friends?
No, unless I am going to stay with this person for the rest of my life.

34. Who do I want to meet?
a. Jesus Christ - never see Him before, but I can feel Him and His love always.
b. The person who loves Jesus and me VERY MUCH (in words & actions).

35. What is the one question I want to ask you in return?
Why do you read this particular post (35 FAQ About Me)?



My Other Info

First Blog Entry:
17 Oct 03, Here I Am

Web Tools Learned:
Basic web tools and tricks by MandarinDesign; MS FrontPage (suggested and commented by KenTheMan )

Web Tools To Learn:
Dreamweaver, MS Flash (never seem to get started)

Self Discovery:
Poem composition, creative expression, reflection on life, new perspectives about things and people

Friends Made Online:
Chris, Adam, Weide, Ken, Julie, Doctordaisy, Carthik, Jan, Evolnix, Amin, Fin, David, Michael, Take, Genie, JumbleMind, Mei Chun, Gerry, Elvina, Daniel, Tommy, Richard, Garry, Edwin, Charlie, and many more...